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Edward "the Great"

I met this seemingly brilliant young man last night. He insisted I call him "Daddy."

We did some amazing things. I was up and I was down....but all the time he was inside. Telling me who I was, how to use my body, and asking who he was...."Daddy!" Over and over... Honestly, never called anyone Daddy, that much on life. I probably sounded weird, but this man used me like I was his to take. I was so down for him.  

It's been a great 11 years since I felt so good. And really; beyond the pleasure, I felt healed. Like he touches a special place, both inside me and within me. He is sensitive but passionate. Affectionate but demanding. Kind and concerned. 

I  feel like I have built so many barriers to intimacy, so I as not even actualize it, if it's possible. But with "the Great," there is an instinctive understanding and longing for both of us. 

One the second night, after a 12 hour day of connecting and sensuality, where he convinced me "you ain't going nowhere" he subtlety ended the night with, "I like you. This is a good start."

Wow. I have been waiting for someone to be that sincere with me for ages. And, it happens. But for some reason, the sentiments are mutual with "the Great." There is something truly authentic and surreal about our connection. I hope we do not loose that. He seems to know what he needs in intimacy and relationship, and it adorns him like armor. 

I'm hopeful that we will bond; learn to trust and believe in one another, and keep the discipline and passion of sex coming. I need all those things.

It's been a while since, it was this REAL.

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Song: "No Limit" - Usher, Chris Brown, Rick Ross








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  1. EnigmaAugust 21, 2022 at 4:53 PM

    I am not sure if this is "so fa real" as I recalled the last post I put out some years ago and have been trying to find you. Times have changed and it is good to still see you writing how we use to years years ago! I started back writing myself....my safe place.....being anonymous sort of but....man....

    I hope the connection from this post is still real as I read and felt it. I do miss our banter and comments on each others posts. Let me know how things are going with you and this new connection. Hope this finds you well....and please respond if you get this. I felt like we could definitely relate......hope to hear back as I know this is from January......

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