The internet has made people such sluts. Well, people have always been tempted towards sexuality. But, seriously, people have absolute behaviors not being able to control their sexual nature, since the influence of the world.wild.web. (and smartPhone apps). Am I simply an unwilling prude, or is there actually something crass about sexxing, nearly, everyone one deems attractive?
I am no saint to getting sex from others without attachment. My truth is actually, that so-called "no -strings-attached" relations suit my fancy. Not necessarily in choice, but by reason and accessibility. I don't have the type of life another person should usually be interested in sharing; in short, its erratic, overly complicated, and too free-standing. But, a truth be told, there's something respectable about belonging with someone. (There's also a lot that's suffocating & threatening about taking up commitment for the sake of it).
All that being said, I come to realize in my experiences for learning, that though it's scandalized & mistreated, sex is truly good. Additionally, put aside the nagging emotions, lingering feelings of uncertainty, and--most importantly--the inhibitions to hold back desires, sexual intercourse (and sexuality), in its rawest and most intimate, is beauty.
It doesn't have to be a free-for-all. There is a lot of pleasure in restraining the enemy. Can you image....the urges, the guilt, the shame of sexuality? That's a darkness, in which we must apply resistance, as a moral people. But, to employ tact and a bit of grace to all one's interests, especially sexual, is brilliance and a gift.
In my experiences, I've even learned about character and influence: patience in your hormonal moments will reveal a lot about personal drive, taste, one's will to seek joy - which is inclusive, psychological, and attained for spiritual health.
As blasphemous as it may sound, gay sex is afterall a joyous sex. The mere contemplation of it, makes me erect; I am exuberant, tempted, and unable to finish a cohesion of thoughts about gay sex. My mind stops being at rest; and, I realize gay sex and anal sex is enjoyed because its distracting and taBoo and, exactly what kinky people and gay men want in intimacy: the ability to be a little different, a little more, innately, free. The appreciation for self-beauty, and mirroring the masculine, inner nature--which needs to be nurtured and cajoled, even in manhood--is one incomparable to sex with a woman. I am fascinated to measure the ways, I can pleasure another man and I'm thrilled, when he delights in experiences of sensation never before accessed. Can you imagine the nerves and courage it takes to not only prepare oneself as a receiver for anal sex, but also the excitement & ambition a giver must have to pursue such an intimate, but nearly forbidden challenge?
It's not easy being gay ... a man for a man, to grind and thrust! One heated urge against another, already inflamed! Muscle against mountain....who caves and who sustains?
It's a reality, though; one that must be contended. It must be challenged. And, it must be conquered, whether he finds peace or turmoil, there's a contemplation and a joy to follow.
I'm just glad after all the hate; personal & public distaste; and ventured queer experiences, I actually forgive who I'm not and accept what I am in sex, in mind, and on Earth.
I am no saint to getting sex from others without attachment. My truth is actually, that so-called "no -strings-attached" relations suit my fancy. Not necessarily in choice, but by reason and accessibility. I don't have the type of life another person should usually be interested in sharing; in short, its erratic, overly complicated, and too free-standing. But, a truth be told, there's something respectable about belonging with someone. (There's also a lot that's suffocating & threatening about taking up commitment for the sake of it).
All that being said, I come to realize in my experiences for learning, that though it's scandalized & mistreated, sex is truly good. Additionally, put aside the nagging emotions, lingering feelings of uncertainty, and--most importantly--the inhibitions to hold back desires, sexual intercourse (and sexuality), in its rawest and most intimate, is beauty.
It doesn't have to be a free-for-all. There is a lot of pleasure in restraining the enemy. Can you image....the urges, the guilt, the shame of sexuality? That's a darkness, in which we must apply resistance, as a moral people. But, to employ tact and a bit of grace to all one's interests, especially sexual, is brilliance and a gift.
In my experiences, I've even learned about character and influence: patience in your hormonal moments will reveal a lot about personal drive, taste, one's will to seek joy - which is inclusive, psychological, and attained for spiritual health.
As blasphemous as it may sound, gay sex is afterall a joyous sex. The mere contemplation of it, makes me erect; I am exuberant, tempted, and unable to finish a cohesion of thoughts about gay sex. My mind stops being at rest; and, I realize gay sex and anal sex is enjoyed because its distracting and taBoo and, exactly what kinky people and gay men want in intimacy: the ability to be a little different, a little more, innately, free. The appreciation for self-beauty, and mirroring the masculine, inner nature--which needs to be nurtured and cajoled, even in manhood--is one incomparable to sex with a woman. I am fascinated to measure the ways, I can pleasure another man and I'm thrilled, when he delights in experiences of sensation never before accessed. Can you imagine the nerves and courage it takes to not only prepare oneself as a receiver for anal sex, but also the excitement & ambition a giver must have to pursue such an intimate, but nearly forbidden challenge?
It's not easy being gay ... a man for a man, to grind and thrust! One heated urge against another, already inflamed! Muscle against mountain....who caves and who sustains?
It's a reality, though; one that must be contended. It must be challenged. And, it must be conquered, whether he finds peace or turmoil, there's a contemplation and a joy to follow.
I'm just glad after all the hate; personal & public distaste; and ventured queer experiences, I actually forgive who I'm not and accept what I am in sex, in mind, and on Earth.
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