The toughest thing to understand about life is knowing you have a difficulty, which cannot be controlled or manipulated. Most people are diagnosed with psychological disorders, see therapist and physicians, or have some coping mechanism providing them "a way out," if you will. But for others, that are more intuitive & thoughtfully creative, the problem isn't a medical one. Yes, there's a possibility for a certain anxiety; but, in my experiences navigating this very esoteric life, the nature of 5his particular coping has more to do with finding strategic methods of development & acceptance, allowing one to continue his lifestyle. Personally, my journey has been about, first, trying to process the reality, that, I am psychologically different. Aside from my usual bouts with depression, I believe, I do have an alternative way of thinking and constructing patterns and memories, which accordingly help to keep my life consistent, or alter it. Moreover, it's ...