Everything Fa Free...it's all Pricele$$

The internet has made people such sluts. Well, people have always been tempted towards sexuality. But, seriously, people have absolute behaviors not being able to control their sexual nature, since the influence of the world. wild .web. (and smartPhone apps). Am I simply an unwilling prude, or is there actually something crass about sexxing, nearly, everyone one deems attractive? I am no saint to getting sex from others without attachment. My truth is actually, that so-called "no -strings-attached" relations suit my fancy. Not necessarily in choice, but by reason and accessibility. I don't have the type of life another person should usually be interested in sharing; in short, its erratic, overly complicated, and too free-standing. But, a truth be told, there's something respectable about belonging with someone. (There's also a lot that's suffocating & threatening about taking up commitment for the sake of it). All that being said, I come to realize in my...

I'm thirty-years old, and I'm early-morning pissing in a Happy Birthday cup, in my kid brother's living room. His bitch already told me to stop using her lights, during the day; but, I can't stop the mishappenings of my crippled, but laughable existence. (I'll probably cry, if I ever get this f-ing blog posted!) It's continuously a mary-go-'round navigating this course of a dream, in which I've led myself. Yes, woo is me, and at this point it must be acceptable to realize the victor and the villain, in my life. I won't badger, or blister my head (literally) over its lack of foresight or connection to any truths, including the ones manifested in a younger, more impressionable me. In fact, this is still very much part of my motive and facets. I can, will, and have delivered what I am, as it becomes real to me. That's a type of freedom. So, I'm thirty, and I'm probably about a quarter of the man I portray. I think to/in/for power, but I...