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I need to record these thoughts to both assess myself and to be certain I make informed and definite decisions about the future. Nothing more have I sought, in life, than truth -- in family, in relationship, in learning, and in value. I have not experienced much psychological breakdown, recently, even though my mind is constantly filled with conflict. I am learning to live by principles, stay aware, and learn to love where I am -- without over-thinking. Of course, this is terribly difficult for me; but, "we try anyways." This one thing, though (this is usually how moments of overcoming and transformation occur) I cannot shake. And, it is an issue I wish I was not afflicted by; but, the mind has a way of repressing and protecting. As life happens, I have learned that our minds are always storing information, making connections, ascertaining our issues, and essentially sheltering itself, so as to not be troubled by the situations surrounding it. The issue I am suddenly troubled

So, I been in it for a minute; by that, I mean a year and "pocket change." It's been a wild and tumultuous road, and somehow I'm still going. They say, when you're going through hell to keep going. I can't say this is hell, but it's a journey I never had before. Never thought it would cost so much to keep from being alone and supposedly submit oneself to something greater: an intimate relationship, that is. I could say the road to Christianity and perfection is much the same. Loving God is easy; but submitting yourself to faith, loving your neighbor,  overcoming enemies, taking the moral road and seeing beyond what it looks like both changes you and challenges you. It's a fight with yourself to overcome limitations the world has set. And, in a great way, one takes those same skills of faith and belief with him in any battle, or challenge. In a way, it leaves me feeling like I'm heading to a "point-of-no-return." When has luck run out? Or,

____ Since my greatest mistake--being a “college dropout”--and, the struggle to overcome that feat, my professional career has been a whirlwind and boot-kick in the ass. My resume of experiences have been described such terms, as ‘random,’ ‘incomplete,’ ‘unstable,’ and ‘without direction.’ I get it; in the corporate and professional market, not just experience but achievement matters. For me, the multiple jobs and positions I've had represent skill growth, tact and development for corporate politics, and essentially, the ability for me to both take risk and create profit, in my life. Simple truth: I need to get ahead, and do it fast. Aside from the reality that people my peers are expected to be 5xtimes beyond my professional capacity with degrees and letters and salary, as proof, I simply can't suffer not being able to personally manage my lifestyle. Fuck being broke. Being black and broke: it's so redundant. The white folks love that… Which is why I moved back to Seattl

The toughest thing to understand about life is knowing you have a difficulty, which cannot be controlled or manipulated. Most people are diagnosed with psychological disorders, see therapist and physicians, or have some coping mechanism providing them "a way out," if you will. But for others, that are more intuitive & thoughtfully creative, the problem isn't a medical one. Yes, there's a possibility for a certain anxiety; but, in my experiences navigating this very esoteric life, the nature of 5his particular coping has more to do with finding strategic methods of development & acceptance, allowing one to continue his lifestyle. Personally, my journey has been about, first, trying to process the reality, that, I am psychologically different. Aside from my usual bouts with depression, I believe, I do have an alternative way of thinking and constructing patterns and memories, which accordingly help to keep my life consistent, or alter it. Moreover, it's

With every journey I take, I realize that nothing is for keeps. Today, was tough for me. Over the past several months, I have been experiencing and going through so many changes. I've had changes before, but I have always been so spiritually optimistic, that I take them on as challenges and attempt to make the best of a trivial situation. There has always been a disconnect with my thoughts, and what is reality. But, in my defense, I'm a terribly emotional person and I would be dead psychologically, if I saw things without my rose-colored glasses. I learned today, that my 9-month old Doberman Pinscher is dead. It was a hard decision to return to Texas, after the professional battles, economic losses, and emotional confrontations I've had here. But, I did it, because I was living with unstable circumstances and I didn't know how to save the dream. Seattle had become my home for the prior three years, and it was my dream to be there. Since, I was a kid and lived ther

Interview Thank You Note: c/o Regenia Phillips of Collin College Pertaining to the interview (or lack thereof), I would like to pose a rebuttal; not a question, as you may have requested. It was pointless, I might say, to prompt only two questions regarding my previous experience(s), which were prevalent in the resume before you. I assume, in the 30 minutes I was late, you had ample time to read over my resume; assert your opinions; and, make haste over my prior experiences. I am terribly glad, that I had respect enough for you, to apologize for my tardiness. But, if my being late were a problem, maybe your e-mail response should not have been "no problem." I would have gladly not shown myself, if I had known a blatant show of conceit and ridicule were in-store for me. It is of no place, for a hiring party--much less, a woman-- to judge the experiences of a [man] individual with callous and apprehensive intent. What could you possibly know about the plights of a man: how